life
11/27/2005 05:22:00 PM
im back after dont know how many weeks. i dont think it`s alot though. hahas. not considered back though. i remained in singapore. OK. enough of CRAPs. holidays so far has been AVERAGE. didnt do much though. spent most of my time at home. but one sure thing is that i enjoy SLEEPING. hahas. sleeping is just a great PLEASURE to me. (: too PIG. but never mind. and im sure i`ll GAIN WEIGHT by the end of the holidays. oh dreads. that`s one thing i seriously dont want. but i`ve been EATING lots of JUNK food recently. and i mean JUNK. those that are NOT healthy yet TASTY. hahas. im sure those CALORIES and CARBOHYDRATES are building up in me. darling goes exercising sometimes in the morning or at night with his cousins and almost play basketball weekly,, not to forget volleyball training ( though he skips them sometimes ). my reply will always be ' wah. so energetic but i rather SLEEP '. ah ! a PIG i am. HONESTLY,, i MISS TRACK. ):
i`ve been wanting to go SHOPPING ever since the holidays started. but the streets are always PACKED with human beings ( that`s what i`ve seen after i went out with darling to town that day ). i dont quite like CROWDED places. and definitely not to mention having to SQUEEZE with the crowd. what`s singapore only resource ? HUMAN BEINGS ( though the population seems to be decreasing and people dont want to make human beings and the government have to come up this and that policy to encourage people to make human beings ). back to my SHOPPING. i want to buy LOTS of things. but im currently SHORT of cash. i was hoping to get a CREDIT CARD so i can go around shops with my card. but this is obviously my WISHFUL thinking. so right now im trying to look for SPONSERS. hahas. but i still think the feeling of buying stuff using ur own money is better that using others. the PLEASURE is what it`s called. my BUYING list :: either a NIKE or ADIDDAS SLING BAG,, a pair of GREEN SNEAKER,, either a pair of RIPCURL or RIPPLES SLIPPERS,, a WALLET maybe from THE WALLET SHOP,, a PENCIL CASE,, a 3/4 PANTS,, and i believe the list goes on. hahas. so MONEY is needed. my mother says she will buy for me. but that`s provided she keeps her word and it shall only be a pathetic 10%. on the other hand i realised i cant do shopping with her. because by then i just dont want to spend any money. maybe a little though. but not as much as i spend when i go out with my friends. kinda WEIRD though. but forget bout it. i just hope to get at least some items bought. (: and yeah definitely CHRISTMAS SHOPPING ! whees~ !
i believe i`ll enjoy my december holidays. (: im having 2 family chalets and maybe a christmas party. actually i wanted the christmas party but i have to do the cleaning up after that. =x hahas. was hoping my mother can really organise it. the 2 family chalets will be celebrating one of the cousins 21st birthday and another will be for an advanced christmas celebration. not to forget 2e3`o4 class bbq ! hope everyone will enjoy ! but i`ll MISS darling so much when im out. really hope darling can join me. but it`s kinda difficult. my parents are around ! then darling can go chop passport. hahas. he`ll know what i mean. lols.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY ! i mean that was supposed to be 29 november. but just an advanced greeting. mummy bought a cake at ANGIE CHOICE. i chose it ! it was damn NICE ! i meant the cake. it`s a SMILING FACE and it`s just NICE ! it`s not very sweet,, but it`s SPONGY and OK i cant think of any words to describe it ( i have a very LIMITED range of vocabulary words ). NICE shall it be. and oh yar,, another recommendation of food. nee soon south community centre cafe sells NICE WAFFLE. it`s NICE ! STRAWBERRY ICE CREAM it`s the topping i recommend too. i just cant figure out what brand of ice cream is that. hahas. but anyway i cant remember what`s the name of the cafe. check it out !
OK. there was something which sets me thinking or reflecting again. maybe as everyone of us live by each day,, he/she will meet with something to reflect or think upon on. but somehow i think im influence by ms loo by 10%. hahas. she always want us to REFLECT on our LIFE and lead a PURPOSEFUL LIFE. now i think she meant WELL for us. but i think i`ll start complaining again if i hear her wanting us to reflect again. =x sort of CONTRADICTING myself though. never mind. i was reading my book SHOPAHOLIC TIES A KNOT on friday afternoon but was interupted by 2 ladies knocking on my door. maybe i should not open the door ( i didnt let them in for ur information ). they`re STRANGERS. but anyway i think they are from a certain church and they`re catholic-s too. i have to admit i have forgotten at least 8o% of the DA DAO LI they said. but the main thing is they set me off thinking WHY IS LIFE SO PRECIOUS YET MAJORITY OF THE POEPLE ARE MORE CONCERN OF EARNING MORE MONEY ? if there is a millionaire who`s dead and there`s a dog who just straying in the streets,, who do you is more SUPERIOR ? by then will that million dollars in the bank still count ? this is definitely some BIG DA DAO LI again. but i was thinking,, in LIFE we need MONEY. and maybe that`s why we`re concern about earning money. in education,, we need certificates to get us good jobs and good pays. PAYS = MONEY. so can i conclude in every aspect of life we need money. or i shall not use the word need,, ESSENTIAL it shall be. OK. i dont really want to elaborate much on what i`ve been thinking or maybe even those CRAPs in me ( i do think WEIRD or only MY LOGIC things ). but yea,, i just want to THANK those people or even stuffs around me who have made ( not as in DNA and genetic theory stuff ) my LIFE. they include :: my FAMILY ( though problems and unhappiness do arise ),, my RELATIVES ( i love my grandmothers` cooking,, the jokes that we cracked during gatherings,, etc ),, DARLING ( I LOVE YOU and YIJIAZHIZHU ),, my FRIENDS ( pardon me for those bad things i`ve done,, my attitude,, i cherish every single one of you ),, etc etc etc. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING ! <3s. this is MY LIFE. it`s PRECIOUS cause my LIFE is in MY LIFE. (:
back to some academic stuffs. i`ve got to WORK HARD and PUMP OIL. i`ve to finish my holiday homework as soon as possible so i can do my REVISION before a new year comes. and that will stop my mother from nagging at me ( oops ). =x
NOTE :: i`ve got a new handphone number and the old number will be terminated as from 7 december onwards. thanks !
i LOVE you darling ! MISS you too ! * hugs and kisses.
- life is precious. cherish yours. -
Monday, November 14, 2005
BACK !
11/14/2005 03:11:00 PM
just this friday night, i was doing some sort of thinking. hahas. darling started by sms-ing me saying he`s afraid he cant cope next year. and so this sets my 2 hours of thinking. and so... i began to think about next year. how am i going to COPE in my STUDIES next year ?? next year is our turn to sit for the o level examination. so how in the world am i able to cope with this major examinations. i sat on my study table thinking. in fact before that, i was trying to the english comprehension- holiday homework. but sadly, i didn`t even know how to do the first question ! that was indeed demoralising. somehow i felt that im TIRED of studying. during social studies lecture just that morning, ms tan said that what we`re learning is only the basic, some may not even be in used when we work in the society next time. during that every few minutes i thought, "then why should we study in the first place ?". im TIRED. i have NO CONFIDENCE bout next year. "what if i cant perform in my o`s next year ?". i have NO CONFIDENCE. i dont feel like studying anymore. im TIRED. but i no it`s IMPOSSIBLE for me NOT to study. if only life wasn`t so realistic. MIAN DUI XIAN SHI ba joel teng ! i went to lie on the bed. kind depressed. i told darling i was afraid. i have no confidence. and i really have to THANK darling for everything. i felt thankful. at least i still have you to walk with me down this tough road. THANKS DARLING. i have to BRACE UP ! i have to be STRONG !
i had lessons with cai lao shi during these two weeks of school. and surprisingly i found my answer to my own question during her lesson. hahas. A PERSON MAY HAVE PUT IN LOTS OF EFFORT BUT IT CAN BE DUE TO THE ENVIRONMENT THAT HE/SHE CANT PERFORM. this is the simplified version. of course cai lao shi`s version was much much more china. hahas. and yar... the ENVIRONMENT. this is the external factor. i`ve found my answer ! (:
holiday is not officially here yet. cause i still need to go back to school on tuesday for god knows how many hours and music and movement night. mr yeo is going teach 3 chapters of biology. oh GOSH ! my backside is so going to rot sitting on the same chair for long hours. and i think i will be dozing off. SLAP ME if i do. errr... better not. just wake me up will do. hahas. ms loo is leaving the school. hope she will lead a purposeful- didnt mean to be sarcastic life in hong kong. wish her well.
there are tons of homework to ba done this holiday. for CHEMISTRY - TYS electrolysis ; powerpoint presentation ; TEST. ENGLISH - comprehension ; 2 book reviews ; vocabulary unit 6 and 7 ; analysis on writer`s style. A-MATH - TYS ; textbook questions. HMT - WHOLE of the lian xi ben. E-MATH - stack of questions ; textbook questions. PHYSICS - TYS waves mcq ; online worksheet ; workbook. BIOLOGY - to be given on tuesday. so it this called a holiday ?!
i made a new specs. hehes. kinda like it though. but im not sure if it fits me. it`s red ! hahas. and oh yar. im currently crazy over dang-ou. hahas. wang zi bain qing wa rocks ! i cant wait. so i went to rent the vcds. hahas. the ending is funny. hahas. i love to see dang-ou smile. he`s CUTE ! hahas. but not to forget JAY too. hahas. JAY ROCKS !!!
i hope everyone is doing fine. TAKE CARE !
whees ! tmr is YIJIAZHIZHU 1oth month le. (: I LOVE YOU DARLING ! <3s -you are loved by me now and always.
- studying is tough. real tough. -
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
imNOTasSTRONGas i think i am.
11/02/2005 12:17:00 PM
o`level mother tongue paper 2 just SUCKS ! i just needed more TIME ! it wont kill you to give me more TIME but it will kill ME if i did badly -- which i think i will. i DONT WANT to drop higher mother tongue next year. i started taking higher mother tongue since primary 2 and i DONT WANT to drop it just like that. my cousins all had A1s for mother tongue and i want to have too. but that A1 dream seriously seems so FAR to me. neither do i want to disappoint my parents. i havent been performing in academic wise. and i know i HAVE to perform in academic wise cause my parents have pinned their HOPES on me. but i CANT perform during examinations. and i dont know why. -.- what`s the PROBLEM that i CANT perform ??! ARGH ! ive studied but i still CANT perform. OH DREADS ! i rather my parents SCOLD me about my results than to keep quiet. i mean i`ll feel BETTER that way. but of course it will be BEST if i performed WELL.
i USED to think im STRONG enough. but i realised im NOT. i cant even CONQUER my FEAR of exams. its the basic of tackling exams. can some great scientists invent a pill that helps students in tackling exams ?? i HATE crying. but i cried. BEFORE and AFTER. i know darling will be hurt everytime i cry. but tears just flow out automatically. i DONT WANT darling to be hurt. who wants your love ones to be hurt ? so i will LEARN TO BE STRONG. i`ll SMILE like this (:
PLEASE MOTIVATE ME TO STUDY. waimun said she will. i believe she will. and oh yar. WAIMUN PLEASE STUDY TOO. hahas ! ONCE AGAIN PLEASE MOTIVATE ME TO STUDY. cause i know i will end up sleeping again. =x
darling have CONFIDENCE in yourself. you lack self-confidence. JIAYOUU in the coming up volleyball competitions. im your loyal supporter. hehes. i`ll try to go support you if i can. * hug and kisses. JIAYOUU !! LOVEya. <3s
JAY ROCKS! PLEASE SUPPORT HIS NEW ALBUM !
DARLING ROCKS !
- i will learn to be strong -* gurllgurll--
